When I pictured running my own business, to be quite honest, I kind of always pictured typing on my laptop at the beach. My poetic phrases would come tumbling out, I would be looking at the most miraculous sunset, and money would just come pouring in. I believe I had a really good tan in my daydreams as well. And a best-selling book coming out. I also did yoga every day. Yep, that about sums it up.
It should come as no surprise to anyone that two months and seven days in (but who is counting) my real life as a business owner isn’t exactly like I had pictured.
It’s a bit more like this.
The truth? I haven’t yet been able to figure out an amazing life balance, my projects keep piling up against each other, it turns out I don’t yet make enough money to even pay quarterly taxes (as my accountant gently pointed out to me), and some days, I just have no idea of what to do next.
I sometimes feel like a failure.
It’s a lot of finding out that I should have done something when it’s almost too late, second guessing my pricing, trying to figure out a marketing plan, feeling like a fraud, and not knowing exactly what to say when people ask me how it’s going.
It’s also exhilarating, thrilling, and so inspiring.
My days are always changing, I’m connecting with amazing people, and I am constantly thinking of how I could grow and develop what I’m doing. So, to be truly transparent, I’m telling you that it’s been a bit up and down so far.
I’m thinking that if I had been an overnight success, this story wouldn’t be nearly as interesting. I would be able to say – I had a goal, and I achieved it. The End. I’m sure no one would want to read that story. It would either be really boring or it would just make people hate me.
Either way, it’s just not the way my story is meant to go right now, and I think it’s actually a better read that way.
How about you? Is there anything in your life that hasn’t turned out to be like you pictured, but is actually more interesting? Please share below.